Happy Birthday [*]

happy birthday so make a wish please accept my apologies i wonder what would have been would you have been a little angel or an angel of sin? tom-boy running around, hanging with all the guys or a little tough boy with beautiful brown eyes i paid for the murder before they determined the s*x choosing our life over your life meant your death and you never got a chance to even open your eyes sometimes i wonder as a fetus if you fought for your life would you have been a little genius in love with math would you have played in your school clothes and made me mad? would you have been a little rapper like your poppa the piper would you have made me quit smoking by finding one of my lighters i wonder about your skin tone and shape of your nose and the way you wouldve laughed and talked fast or slow i think about it every year, so i picked up a pen happy birthday i love you whoever yoou wouldve been happy birthday what i thought was a dream make a wish was as real as it seemed happy birthday what i thought was a dream make a wish was as real as it seemed i made a mistake i got a million excuses as to why you died and other people got their own reasons for homicide whos to say it wouldve worked and whos to say it wouldnt have i was young and struggling, but old enough to be a dad the fear of being my father has never disappeared i ponder it frequently wihle im sippin on my beer my visions of a family was artificial and fake so when it came time to create i made a mistake but now you got a little brother maybe its really you maybe you really forgave us knowing we were confused maybe, everytime that he smiles its you proudly know that your fathers doing the right thing now ill never tell a woman what to do with her body but if she dont love children then we cant party i think about it every year, so i picked up a pen happy birthday i love you whoever you wouldve been happy birthday what i thought was a dream make a wish was as real as it seemed happy birthday what i thought was a dream yeah, make a wish was as real as it seemed i made a mistake and from the heavens to the womb to the heavens again from the ending to the ending never got to begin maybe one day we can meet face to face in a place without time and space happy birthday and form the heavens to the womb to the heavens again form the ending to the ending never got to begin maybe one day we can meet face to face in a place without time and space happy birthday what i thought was a dream make a wish was as real as it seemed happy birthday what i thought was a dream make a wish was as real as it seemed i made a mistake