Lost within My Self

The chaos came: desires and pa*sions Destroy my mind The strikes of heart and thoughts Can not get normal The innertion takes me To the lost points far away Once the feelings being so comfortable calm Become unruled and wild and pulsing The usual state of things Ceased to exist There stayed my pain The feeling of delight jealousy and pa*sion I remain the same I do not change I play, manipulate and let the others Do with me the same, and then enoure I change surrounding and then Come back again. I find and lose The relaxation is found only In the unbridled pa*sion In desire to dissolue or disappear But all in all the feeling now is nealized The one I cannot understand It tries to conguen me and get me back And to restore all what was lost And that was just the decay of my soul The memories which are pa*sionate and sweet Are mixed with everyday occurance Will I ever feel the other way? Please, present me with a gift Of the other state