Betrayal/ Forgiveness

All that I ever wanted - to understand my nightmares Possessed by my fears Betrayed by my Pride Alone I wandered in the deepest Dark Seeking comfort from the vanity Each time I escape the Real My soul died, died a bit more Confronting the evil within Praying for my angel to appear Agonized whisper into the emptiness Begging for salvation - salvation for this cursed mind Words without meaning Touch without feeling - I did not recognize my own face... Eyes that were once shining - now extinguished Left only a silent cold Sound of a tear falling down In the desperate hour of loneliness This shattered heart reaching For it's relief - the relief it can not find Glance without affection Kiss without sensitivity Promise without comprehension Love without hope -I do not remember my own tale... Betrayed by my Anger Betrayed by my Beliefs Betrayed by my Delusions Betrayed by my Lust (I wish) Strength - to be released from my demons (I desire) Wisdom - to forgive the past - to forgive Me