Slow Burn

It begins with a dark, glowing ember Something black, burning its way out of me Searing the flesh, pain is the only thing I feel Scar's all I see Oh no, the fire's burning my insides again What can I do to silence my desire tonight? Face consumer reason leaving all the ashes there You won't catch me for granting my decision I can't keep telling myself What I wanna hear I can't just close my eyes I know that it's killing me And it's poisoning the best of me But I say I don't want to believe So let me tell you, boy, tell you, boy About the lies I lead That is how it kills, I got some flames and gasoline Broken teeth replace the blackout memories in my head Wreckage from the blast, it often shakes me to the floor I know it's over but I can't go home tonight And after this I feel as empty as the night before Feel the pain and yet I'm still begging for more Masochistic, nihilistic, gorging, wrecked up thoughts My life's a mess and I can't find a way to fix it I can't keep telling myself What I wanna hear I can't just close my eyes I know that it's killing me And it's poisoning the best of me But I say I don't want to believe So let me tell you, boy, tell you, boy About the lies I lead Calling, calling out The darkest reaches of my soul I'm riddled with self-doubt Crawling, crawling out My will to fight will more than suffice While others will lay down It's only as dark as you make it I know that it's killing me And it's poisoning the best of me But I say, I don't want to believe So let me tell you, boy, tell you, boy About the lies I lead