I Wonder

All alone the broadening skies under the every night I will lie Scratching claw and grip the rails every day my living hell Oh God you know I tried, I know how hard I've tried I know I tried Hey I'd like to daze away to a place no one has known In a state of mind I could call mine that only I could have own Where I could hum a tune anytime I choose And then there is no such thing as time Where I feel no pain just calm and sane what a place for one to find Now you see I'm watching everything I do And they're watching everything I say So baby we'll leave, we'll leave and breathe won't leave me be Sometimes I'd asked myself and said, "Why am I even here?" And I wonder how you leave me wondering, you leave me wondering Won't you stop watching me I said, "They're watching me, watching me, watching me" Now in my corner I got them stealing in my eyes and And arms holding up my knees and then rocking back and forth my life I didn't mean to feel this way when I walked into the door And they ripped away my memories and I can't remember who I was before Oh Lord, oh Lord no, now they're watching everything I do And they're watching everything I say So then leave, then kneel and breathe oh leave me be And I only wanted to be 16 and free and I And I wonder