A Letter From Prison

Sometimes I wonder torn between my heart, Torn between my heart and my mind. And I feel my body to see if I'm in, If I'm in tune with what I find. But I don't know how to feel. And I don't know what to feel, Anymore. Anymore. Wanna be the decision-cision Kill free things. I feel a difference inside. I'm a boy who's so sick of searching. Maybe there's a heaven nearby. So should I let these thoughts out, Or should I let you in? Its so easy to be alone. Look within. Will I find home? I just don't know How to feel. Feel How to feel How to feel Feel Feeling so afraid like I am stuck here, Like I am stuck here and can't move. I like to watch the sunsets lighting the warm colors. The warmth it blinds the truth. But I don't know how to feel, don't. And I don't know what to feel anymore. I keep on hurting myself. Tearing off the skin, I let it burn at the touch. What I've lived, what I've learned Though it may be the truth, truth it hurts. When we have something inside that no motherf**ker will touch. No I won't think like you. If I did what am I trying to prove? I just don't know... I just don't know how to feel. I just don't know what to feel anymore