My Frustration

where was i when god had shown how to make a happy home lie in bed and sleep don't come have some peace then give me some and i know the reason why you hold me down i won't let this fear of loss make me drown in my bed i lie alone scrape together bone to bone and i can't seem to seem to find my way i can't seem to find the break of day i'll stay just a step away where was i when god had shown how to make a happy home and i have become my worst enemy i will survive this instability in my bed i lie alone scrape together bone to bone again i have become my worst enemy i will survive this instability i need to breathe the breath of life you constantly drain my life why can't you see the breath in me i constantly need your need my butterfy don't fly away if i could just take this simple breath of life from me you couldn't take it motherf**ker eternity if i could take this breath of life and come inside of me you wouldn't take it, i need to breathe as i creep the monkey's back now she's gone and oh he's back and i know the reason why you hold me down i won't let this fear of loss make me drown i will stay, i'll stay i will stay, i'll stay