Losing Patience

I was looking forward to this day for so long I had it all planned out I was hoping it'd all work out I was losing patience you know it's never been my best trait counting minutes, hours, counting days then it dawned on me unpredictability I told myself everything's just fine you worry too much, it's gonna eat you alive I was looking forward to this day for so long I had it all planned out I was hoping it'd all work out will it all work out now I feel exposed like a black light on the wall in a darkened room all the dirt appears you can see my fears I don't want to let my guard down you know I never had the feeling that you would prey on my insecurities you know I never had the feeling that you would prey on these insecurities i have why is this wait taking so long counting minutes, hours, counting days I'm losing patience don't think this means I'm walking away I won't let fear get the best of me now it's up to me I wouldn't change a thing (DON'T THINK THIS MEANS I'M WALKING AWAY)