Raining Holiday, Pt. 2

My eyes are empty The house is quiet now Today has claimed and ruined me My pulse is waiting As boredom strangles it I might sleep but I won't dream Is that what I need? Is that what I need? I wanted to see, I want to believe So I scratch and scrape to find To find a reason to live in a god or a girl Oh, I tried, I tried To abandon guilt, other things that don't exist The hours numb me Some words are stinging still But I don't feel them when they do My head is open, my eyes are bleeding And they demand to see the truth, the truth, the truth But what would that prove? But what would that prove? I wanted it too, I wanted it too And I strain to see the sun I'm just so sick of the gray and the rain This is it, I am done I am done And I'm laying down Let today roll off my back, I'll be all right