Encore Et Encore

You left me never knowin' If we could have been Though i'm alone and lonely It feels like a spotlight is on me . I stop breathing again and again Cause i don't want to feel the pain It feels like my ankles and my wrists are tied up Cause i can't find the strenght to give up. I hear my heart pounding And it's just the beginning Like the wind broke my window The cold is in and never stops to grow, This moment in time keeps growing And by now i fear the neighbors door slaming. I sit on my hallway floor Cause i'm afraid if i walk around i'll see me in a mirror A minute seems like a week And i know i became a freak Cause i'm scared of the dark, i feel its stare And the phone keeps ringging but i don't care Since you got me at the core Now every night same as the one before Any place too high feels like i fall Everywhere i go feels like hitting a wall I know i must think of you in past tense And keep believing there's no chance Now i'm counting each one gone by, and lost I feel the pain they cost. I must imagine you on the other side of earth Either that you'll never be mine or you're not worth . It hurts to know there won't be a picture of you and me Birds flying away, i swear i saw them laugh at me !