She's Saving Me

We were sitting round a dying fire Somebody lit incense, somebody lit a cigarette And pa*sed the bottle around It was just strawberry season Backbreakin' pickers in the patches Every thing's burning down to ashes and down to the ground She's saving me, I don't even think she knows it It's a strange way to show it as distant As last night's dream unravels She's saving me, I'm a very lost soul I was born with a hole in my heart The size of my land locked travels I try to put it aside but it's too much bigger than me There's a big brown hawk in the tree Lighting and leaving And this tea leaves tossing Heads up pennies in my pocket Dead star like a rocket, the arc of my grieving She's saving me, I don't even think she knows it It's a strange way to show it as distant As last night's dream unravels She's saving me, I'm a very lost soul I was born with a hole in my heart The size of my land locked travels The sky pours out biblical rain Then days so still the beauty gives you pain The heatwave kills the green and she remains unseen But colors up my dream with all things blooming This is not all there is, it's not a kingdom It's not an angry God, it feels like her It feels like no fear, it feels like no doubt It feels like inside out, the ashes stir She's saving me, I don't really think she knows it It's a strange way to show it as distant As last night's dream unravels She's saving me, I'm a very lost soul I was born with a hole in my heart As wide as my land locked travels