Disgust

I'm going to cry I live and die I search and find I waste my time I blame my loss When I drag my cross I reach my ??? I see disgust Gotta hold on to my disgust I dig ??? and creep I laugh and sleep My rolling thunder But still I wonder I twitch and ??? Sometimes I wonder ??? You should see it work The politics and dirt Give it to me inch by inch ??? Take it from me mile by mile ??? Sometimes she cries Above the ?? smile