Breaking Rules

Words divide Touched down on a southwest runway Time collides Shipments that never came I drank enough To almost feel at home right here Breaking rules and breaking down But not enough to make me disappear Pushing drugs and skipping town Never thought twice about it I dropped the ball, we lost our only chance to have luck on our side What if we never even make it back? I don't have the answer Now we just talk about it Face offs that never came Revolving doors Kept the neighbors up and talking I thought a lot Unsettled scores And after this how could I face my friends This is not a life I can defend Seconds burned Throat dry I swallowed my pride and.. f**k it all I looked hard and I'm to blame Lesson learned A part of me three years I've had to hideRepressing thoughts of suicide