Behind The Smile

I haven't been a good friend For a long, long time You know I wasn't happy Behind the smile Anywhere you look A reason to believe But I think of what it took To bring me to my proper place And I haven't been a good friend For a long, long time I haven't been a good friend While you've been mine Now am I by your side Or standing in your way 'Cause if this is a sign I don't know what it's supposed to mean And I haven't been a good friend For a long, long time I haven't been a good friend While you've been mine I have seen my perfect day I have watched it fade away You know I'm fighting to be real I haven't been a good friend For a long, long time You know I wasn't happy Behind the smile