Comforting Lie

I started out on the wrong foot Now I'm not myself I am Jekyll, I am Hyde Found this place to hide Come seek me Oh, so up and down So back and forth So insecure Can't get this taste out of my mouth Swallow it down, pretend An' hold it, an' hold it all in Let it build up Oh, build a bomb Then blow it, blow it away Clear it all out Just end it I'm just a normal person Without those problems When did it change? Admissions so embarra*sing I'm on the verge of tears again An' hold it, an' hold it all in I'll let it build up Oh, build a bomb An' blow it, an' blow it away Clear it all out Just end it Oh, look I took the band aid off Did I take it off too soon? Hysterical confession My big courageous move Don't grasp at the predictable A comforting lie can't last Preordained checklist of this awkward love It's so sad An' hold it, an' hold it all in I'll let it build up Oh, build a bomb Then blow it, blow it away Clear it all out Just end it An' sort it, an' sort it out I'll just give it back No thank you An' toss it, an' toss away Eliminate Just give up I, I can't decide This tug of war I'm feelin' weak Yea