Panic

Today is going to be easy Today 'cause you're not around I'll leave off my make-up I'll sleep in my bed To pa*s all the time by Today 'cause you're not around Today you won't be around I concentrate on empty spaces A pa*sive pondering of blankness Sit down, shut up, controlled obsessions Your absence it exhausts me I always panic when I'm left I always panic when I'm left Today I feel destructive Today who cares about myself? I'll live in denial And I'll beat up my head And I'll eat all the chocolate Today 'cause you're not around Today you won't be around I can't control my feelings I sip on dreams and choke on real things Detach myself for preservation I struggle to not want you I always panic when I'm left Oh, is it healthy that we met? If you stop coming will I forget? I always panic Today is going to be simple Today 'cause you're not around My heart will pound lazy No one to impress No smile is required Today 'cause you're not around Today you won't be around