Falling

Believe me when I say that I've tried to understand but something within me just holds me back and says I can't I'm fading, degrading trapped inside this cycle hell fighting, and hiding a persisting lust that I must fill Wanting to give you all I can that's in my will but inside it has rule the more I grab the more I spill Decided, divided I cannot drop this burning coal trusting, and lusting competing sides strive for control why?!!!!!!!!!!!!! Falling torn by deceit, approaching self-defeat the mental light that's hounding, pounding I'm falling A feeling of sadness follows me with my mistakes scarred in my conscience haunting every move I make. Alone, drifting miles apart I'm found, with an empty heart the sound, of peace is calling me I wait, for a time of ease Can't you see, that I am weak can't you see, I'm falling.