Disconnect

These things which I so often wonder this need to create myself frustration forgotten through slumber it's there when I wake, defeated before I rise I'd pull myself out of this mire if I could collect my strength or muster an ounce of desire finding the words, and making them mine is there somewhere I could separate this feeling from memory disconnect myself from me? desire inside to mistreat you it pushes words out of my mouth this cyclical pattern I feed you the back & forth, & up & down but still here you are behind this veil of pious revelation I'll close my eyes and look for worth inside I don't deserve you relinquishing hope for the future I try not to hate it so but you are a bridge to those memories I try to forget, if you only knew is there somewhere to occupy emotion a room to keep my rage away from you? just tell me when these hopeless days are over I'll open my eyes and see my new sun rise I don't deserve this