It's Been Awhile

It's been awhile Since I could Hold my head up high And it's been awhile Since I first saw you And it's been awhile Since I could stand On my own two feet again And it's been awhile Since I could call you And everything I can remember As f***ed up as it all may seem The consequences that are rendered I stretched myself beyond my means And it's been awhile Since I could say That I wasn't addicted It's been awhile Since I could say I loved myself as well And it's been awhile Since I've gone and F***ed things up Just like I always do And it's been awhile But all that sh*t Seems to disappear When I'm with you And everything I can remember As f***ed up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered Have gone and f***ed things up again Why must I feel this way? Just make this go away Just one more peaceful day It's been awhile Since I could Look at myself straight And it's been awhile Since I said, 'I'm sorry' And it's been awhile Since I've seen the way The candles light your face And it's been awhile But I can still remember Just the way you taste And everything I can remember As f***ed up As it all may seem to be I know it's me I cannot blame this on my father He did the best he could for me It's been awhile Since I could Hold my head up high And it's been awhile Since I said, 'I'm sorry'