Brand New Low

Over and over I keep wondering why Then I give up and see that look in your eyes 'Cause if I trip and fall, I'll be to blame And if I hit the wall, I'll still be the same Wasting your time with your so called friends The ones you adore and the ones you pretend And it's kind of sad and deranged But it's not so bad that it can't be explained 'Cause in my mind it's all a waste of time And there's no excuse at all then I realize Surprise, you were right all along And I want to know, have I gone too far? Have I sunk to a brand new low? And I want to know if I've gone too far? 'Cause I've lost all my self control Guilty as charged, I've been convicted and tried Was it too much to ask for you to take my side? 'Cause there's nothing here left to defend When it's always me that you blame in the end 'Cause in my mind it's the perfect crime And there's no excuse at all when I realize Surprise, you were right all along Nothing is what it seems To me you're sleeping without the dreams Without you, nothing defines me When I'm slipping away It's only you that can find me And I'm over my head again I'm falling from end to end