I Live With It Every Day

On August 1st, 1981 I cycled to Scott's house with a BB gun We were almost 12 but we looked 13 He had baby blue eyes that I shot him between Nature provides for us a safety net Whatever we do, we can never forget I live with it every day Even though we moved away Our yesterdays are on a loop A marathon of heartbreaking moments The day they found me asleep on the floor Engine running, closed garage door Was the day the 'For Sale' sign arrived on the lawn 2 weeks later and we were gone Everyone falls through time and the funnel it makes But I'm staying here inside my biggest mistake I live with it every day Even though we moved away Our yesterdays are on a loop A marathon of heartbreaking moments I live with it every day For every step I have to pay The only thing that they can't take The guild that spirals in my wake The love I put away Like games that children play The hearts you choose to break Like cars dumped in the lake The laugh lines on your face The life, I won't embrace The cold house, I won't leave The guests, I won't receive I live with it every day Even though we moved away Our yesterdays are on a loop A marathon of heartbreaking moments I live with it every day For every step I have to pay The only thing that they can't take The guild that spirals in my wake