The State I Am In

I was surprised I was happy for a day in 1975 I was puzzled by a dream It stayed with me all day in 1995 My brother had confessed he was gay It took the heat off me for a while He stood up with a sailor friend Made it known upon my sister's wedding day I got married in a rush To save a kid from being deported and now she's in love I was so touched I was moved to kick the crutches from my crippled friend And she was not impressed 'Cause I cured her on the Sabbath, so I went to confess When she saw the funny side We introduced my child bride to whiskey and gin, to whiskey and gin The priest in the booth had a photographic memory For all he had heard And he took all of my sins and he wrote a pocket novel called "The State I Am In" And so I gave myself to God There was a pregnant pause before he said okay Now I spend my days turning tables 'round in Marks & Spencer's They don't seem to mind I gave myself to sin I gave myself to providence And I've been there and back again The state that I am in I gave myself to sin I gave myself to Providence And I've been there and back again The state that I am in Oh love of mine, would you condescend to help me 'Cause I'm stupid and blind And desperation is the devil's work It is the folly of a boy's empty mind And now I'm feeling dangerous Riding on city buses for a hobby is sad Lead me to a living end I promised that I'd entertain my crippled friend, my crippled friend I gave myself to sin I gave myself to Providence And I've been there and back again The state that I am in I gave myself to sin I gave myself to Providence And I've been there and back again The state that I am in I gave myself to sin I gave myself to Providence And I've been there and back again The state that I am in I gave myself to sin I gave myself to Providence And I've been there and back again The state that I am in I gave myself to sin And I've been there and back again, oh yeah