Manateen

I feel like im becoming a butterfly or a golden bee my smile is like razorblades when I share it cuts bloody deep my body is in the magazines my face on the TV my voice on the radio thats me in my dreams but when I open my eyes im just a piece of SHIT! A WORTLESS COWARD A VAPID WHORE A MORAL-LESS REFUGEE COVERED IN SORES A BLITHERING SEA COW LOST IN ITS DREAMS NOBODY LIKES ME, YEAH NOBODY WANTS ME AT ALL NOBODY LIKES ME, YEAH wet blue world--- it fills me up I find im deep inside waves crash and I breathe water but I havent died I wont come up I wont come up for air I wont come up I wont come up for air .....and beneath the waves I hide my head in darker waters and nobody sees ....I cut myself and hope to draw you in but even sharks pa*s by please explain all alone im growing colder laughter like cancer over my shoulder mirrors like hetchets to the world of my face you know im a complete . . . . . IM A COMPLETE DISGRACE IM NOT A MANATEEN IM NOT A MANATEEN JUST LEAVE ME ALONE JUST LEAVE ME ALONE . . . .and beneath the sea I give up and I descend and im finally free ... and in the end wet blue world ---fills me up fills me deep inside waves crash and I breath water but I havent died NEVER WITH A FURIOUS POISON IN MY HEART WILL I RETURN FROM THE DARKER WATERS I LET THE TIDE TEAR ME APART NEVER WITH FURIOUS POISON IN MY VEINS WILL I RETURN FROM THE DARKER WATERS I WONT HOLD MY BREATH AND WAIT FOR CHANGE I DIE ITS A SUICIDE MY BODY SWALLOWED BY THE DEEP BLUE ABYSS AND INTO THE ENDLESS TIDE i wont come up i wont come up i wont come up for air tonight i wont come up i wont come up i wont come up for air tonight cold and all alone but now I give up