Heaven

It's so beautiful here The swallows are swinging and swaying Sweetly tweeting in the fruit trees Sparrows hip-hop into my hands And somehow I hold them and gently pet their wings Why is this happening here now? I was in tears yesterday Tattered and near lifeless Have I died and pa*sed in to the after world? I must have, this is heaven How did I get here? Let me retrace my steps What happened yesterday? I was in tears, near lifeless Something sad must have happened, but what? What was I crying about? Is it over? Is it okay now? Who am I talking to? What's going on? Oh no, now the sparrow is broken And mangled in my bloody hands This is so awful Giant flying insects are crawling all over me Biting and laughing This is even worse than being alive This is worse than being alive Even worse than being alive I hate this