As the World Dies the Eyes of God Grow Bigger

Descended from Emerson, into this life Falling, falling, falling into my seventh life My father rode a motorcycle naked in the rain Mother, a flower girl, blonde and 18 Three long days in the Colorado jail Seven months pregnant, on the western trail She met El in San Francisco, so it goes (She met El in San Francisco, yeah so it goes) Elwyn was out of his head, speed up his nose Mother met a second man, by chance She remembered from a hometown high school dance The night they got to fighting, man’s arms, they let me fall My head hit the concrete floor, I didn’t move at all My mom hysterical, thinking I was dead She ran into the street, scared out of her head I watched the stars in the heavens for a while Then I came around for good, but not with a smile Moved home to the valley where the hippies conspire Even my grandma loved to get high My father dosed liquid LSD Fried his mind for years to come, look what it’s done to me The breakup ensued, I held my baby brother’s hand I held my baby brother’s hand The nights that followed, footsteps could be heard (The nights that followed in the house, footsteps could be heard) No one on the second floor ‘cept spirits I have learned Mom and her best friend said, "It’s time to go" To Aroyo Hondo, New Mexico Adobe huts, I recall every gathering adobe I was hungry in the desert; I wanted to go home Morning I awoke; I was all alone (But I walked outside I realized) No one but a f**king geek to share the dusty home (No one was there; I thought I would die) As I walked outside I realized (Time stood still; I watched the dome) No one was there; I thought I would die (Then the bug came back, tears in my throat) Time stood still as I watched the goat (Next thing I knew I was in public school) The nurse of a new bug came back; tears in my throat (It wasn’t much, but it followed the rules) Next thing I knew I was in public school (Sat alone; stood alone) It wasn’t much, but it followed the rules (Tried my best to understand my broken home) Sat alone; stood alone (I got to watch my poor mother cry) Tried to understand my broken home (Empty, exposed to all she felt inside) I got to watch my poor mother cry (And then I hear these hippies philosophize) Empty, exposed to all she felt inside And hear these hippies philosophize And dreaming of the commune in the sky (Too many changing partners at different times Brothers and sisters, don’t get too close And dreaming of the commune in the sky And mother waves him goodbye, so I’m left here on my puzzle with nobody’s help) Boycott society, then the kids can’t socialize (My faith is my strength, living in hell) We had a cat named "Hope" and soon it died (Thinking about our locks too thin, wondering if I’m at all like him) There were nervous breakdowns every day, numerous crises games (Before the flood, before the flood, of blood, I’m dead serious, you just you wait) Parents like to play, too many changing partners (The Nazi Klan looked like 6) At different times (The plan is well underway) Brothers and sisters, don’t get too close (Those who crossed me are cursed, will see fewer days) Another routine goodbye (You’ll listen to me; let’s kill in the street) So I’m workin’ on my puzzle with nobody’s help (You made a big mistake so just you f**kin’, livin in hell, El) My faith is my strength because I’m living in hell, thinkin’ about hell, Locked in the bin, wondering if I’m at all like him Before the flood, before the flood of blood I’m dead serious, so just you wait The Manson Klan will look like saints (The Nazi Klan will look like saints) The plan’s well underway, those who crossed me will see fewer days (The plan’s well underway, those who crossed me are cursed) You’re wastable to me; you’re roadkill in the street (Just you wait, you will see fewer days) You’re so wastable to me, like the roadkill in the street; you made a big mistake (Satan) So just you f**king wait (Satan) Blood on the walls; blood on the walls (Satan; Satan) Dear friends, goodbye, needlessly you f**k with me; now you’re gonna die Blood on the walls; blood on the walls; blood on the walls; blood on the walls; blood on the walls; blood on the walls; blood on the walls; blood on the walls; blood on the walls; blood on the walls (Satan; Satan; Satan; Satan)